Really, to watch all the great people I have in my life passaway makes me wonder what the hell God is thinking or what the hell am I thinking that there is a God with a plan. Why do I, time and time again, see greatly talented and wonderful people loose their life and people like child molesters and rapist’s endure. It’s just not natural, I mean in nature the strong and smart survive and the weak and fragile fall by the waste side, but with humanity that doesn’t seem to be the case as I have witnessed too many times. Is it some crazy irony that some great creator or nature built in the great plan to confuse us and keep us on our toes? Is it those that are strong and talented tend to walk this fine line we call life? Or is the “afterlife” really a better place and these great people just get the invite early? I mean when I think of all the great people I know who have lost their life early, I think of them going to a better place, is this just my way of just comforting my pain? Maybe it’s just lifes way of making us use our memories because if I have all the remaining memories of the friends I’ve lost are they really dead or just in a place I can’t hug them? I’ve always been one to convince myself when I’ve lost someone close to me that if I don’t forget them and I remember them in those great moment’s of my life then their really not dead just in a place I can see them. Even though that is a convenient way of taking the pain away, it still hurts my heart every time I get that news that another one of my soldiers has passed.